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The Hardest Goodbyes, are the Ones You Don't Get a Chance to Say

    The land seemed to be holding its breath.  The air was still - quiet and undisturbed; nothing stirred in the early morning mist.  Even the sun seemed reluctant to begin its routine journey across the sky.  No wind rolled through the open plains, stirring the grass, and not a creature dared move.  Everything seemed suspended in time - all but one lone figure.

    Silver as the mist, she moved with precision and grace.  Her paw steps were delicate, yet somehow firm, as if they had a confidence in their actions like none other.  She went by unnoticed, blending in with the grey of dawn and keeping as silent as the still air.  Only her blazing amber eyes gave her away, burning their way through the fog as they stared directly ahead, a determination not to look around glinting fiercely within their golden depths.  Her heart ached, but her mind knew better - there was no going back.  Her decision was rash, she knew, but even so, she couldn't bring herself to doubt it.

    You'll regret it, a voice promptly sneered from the back of her thoughts.  You don't know what you're doing - you're just following blindly! 

    You don't know that... her own voice would reply, trembling with fear and uncertainty despite her words.  You don't know...you just don't know.  There's nothing I could regret now.

    The dappled she-cat paused, her mind suddenly going blank as the voice vanished.  All she could see was the camp in front of her.  Home.  The sun began to twinge the sky with soft pinks and oranges, slowly lifting the fog to reveal the Water Tribe camp.  Still, no one stirred.  Her fellow warriors lay fast asleep in their den, as were the rest of her tribe mates.  Sooka stood stock still, yet her amber eyes suddenly seemed to dart restlessly from left to right, unable to stare forward any longer.  Somehow, it all seemed unfair to her.  Like her last home in the old lands, she had grown attached to the new campsite, and even more attached to the land of Nandryx and all those residing in it.  Even so, things had changed - changed in ways she could never have imagined.  Immediately, her thoughts went into overdrive once again, blurring her vision with flashes of those she had met along the way.

    "Tuari..." she breathed to herself, unable to hold back the tears as they crept over her eyes and down her pale cheeks, staining them grey.  Regret flooded through her, making her paws tingle uncomfortably.  "What a poor friend...I've been..."  The Orange-Water dipped her head in remorse, an odd smile on her lips.  "But what an amazing warrior you've become – my Deputy."  The smile faded, replaced with a solemnness that throbbed in her heart relentlessly.  Not now...I can't regret it now.  Gritting her teeth, she padded back to the dens, coming to a rigid halt outside the gaping entrance.  She stared at it briefly before dragging a white tipped paw through her mane of silver fur.

    "I hope you'll forgive me someday," the feline whispered quietly, placing a pure white feather at the door.  She had stumbled across it in Pheasant Woods some days before, and instantly its innocence and simple beauty reminded her of the pretty snowshoe she now called family.  "I never meant to leave you behind.  Live my share of life.  Live it – and fight on."  Her eyes shown with pride at the thought, burning with a passion she never knew she could feel for another, almost as if the young she-cat were a proper sister.  ”Outrun me…Tuari.”

    Sooka turned away, hoping the young beauty Tuari would find her gift, although it was truly nothing much.  Her golden eyes seemed to blur their vision as a painful twinge spread from her chest all the way through her body.  The soft sounds of sleeping felines seemed to be exhaled from the den's entrance behind her as she padded away, their familiar scents wafting around her as she slowed her pace.  Yet, she forced herself to ignore it, refusing to stop until she reached the edge of Water Tribe's camp.  Reaching the grassy threshold, a sudden spark caught her eye as the sun crept higher into the pale sky, coloring the grey dawn with even brighter hues.  In the grass not far from where she stood lay a smooth and rounded pink gem, glittering faintly in the morning light.

    Just like the ones from back then, she mused, a miserable smile on her maw as she bent to pick it up.  Laughter filled her mind as she recalled her first meeting with her tribe mate Cadence.  It had been she who showed Sooka around the old land, taking her to the sparkling beaches the gem collectors used to traverse.  Within seconds, the colorful beaches turned brown and sandy, swirling beneath shallow waters and darting silver fish.  Cadence's tabby coat seemed to brighten, becoming cream and ginger as Shenzi took her place, the water reflecting her pink tattoo as it glowed brilliantly, droplets of water beginning to rise before Sooka’s eyes.

    ”Hot day, huh?” the petite Siamese’s voice echoed through her thoughts.   ”…I’m Shenzi!”

    And then the scene became grey once more as the first morning of her life in the tribes flashed by.  Gold eyes broke through the dullness, revealing an equally grey tom with a grin on his face.  Mikah...my first friend...  The pain in her heart seemed to worsen, searing through her and burning her insides as if they were on fire, yet still her mind seemed to press onward, determined to make her change her decision.

    ”Race ‘ya!” Mikah yowled, leaping forward.  The pounding of their paws against the grass resounded in her ears, until suddenly she was in front of the grey tom.  She turned back, but the scene was different now.  The then Blue-Green-Water was surrounded by white, his dark coat contrasting against the purity, making him appear like a shadow.

    And then, Mikah washed away, replaced by the mottled Light Triber with an affinity for mushrooms...she could just hear Jay's last words to her before they parted ways…

    "Thanks again, River.  Hopefully we'll see each other again."  

    Sooka clenched her jaw as his voice echoed, knowing that day would never come, and what could have been a wonderful friendship would never exist.  But before she could even begin to properly dwell on it and allow her sadness to consume her, Jay faded into a pretty auburn she-cat with the mark of Earth Tribe on her shoulder.  They had met only briefly between their territories, but still Sooka had yet to shake Mirth from her mind. Her crystal blue eyes pierced through the darkness in her thoughts, but it was short lived as her pelt became redder and thicker, her body growing large and bulky.  Ross seemed to leer at her ever so slightly before he drifted away as well, leaving none other than his own tribe mate in his place.  Bold stripes and copper eyes swam in front of her, the pounding pain in her chest becoming so intense, Sooka was sure her heart would burst.

    "I…I'll miss you most of all," Sooka whispered hoarsely to herself, holding back a gasp of tears.  His figure stood there in her mind, as tall and handsome as he always was, the silver ball that had once been pierced above her own eyebrow glinting in his tattered ear.  Out of habit, she flicked her left ear, the feather dangling from it brushing gently against her cheek as it always did, this time being dampened with salty tears that had found their way over her eyelids and down her silver cheeks.  "Seraphiel...  She hung her head down low, closing her eyes with nothing more or less than feelings of utmost regret and shame, knowing she’d never again feel the warmth of his body pressed against her own, or the sweet sound of his voice as he said her name.  ”I-I’m so sorry…so sorry…”

    The copper eyed tom seemed to frown, his presence fading from her mind.  Yet somehow, his image sharpened.  Four small figures swirled into view at his paws, each one bearing a mark of the tribes.  Sooka’s heart seemed to skip a beat as she stared, unable to breath.  The smallest of the four, pale and white like someone she was sure she knew quite well.  Another was similar, yet darker in his coat…and still there were two more, even darker and more familiar with each passing moment.  A heart wrenching sob finally escaped the dappled she-cat, her golden eyes no longer able to look away from the tom in front of her, four kits pressed against him, all staring at their mother with betrayal in their eyes – the family Sooka knew would never be the same.

    ”I never told you, Seraph – I didn’t tell you.  I’m so sorry...” she mourned, tears blurring her vision until the strange little family was nothing but a memory.  ”I never told you that I…”

    The slender she cat gritted her teeth, cursing herself silently as she tensed her body.  Tears continued to spill over onto her pale face, hiding the secret held behind her golden eyes.

    ”I’ll do anything for you.  Please…don’t cry,” the tom whispered, their rainy encounter flashing in front of her.  But soon, it too, vanished, leaving nothing but the emptiness that had invaded her heart and settled within it since she had awoken.  The tears slowed until eventually they ceased to fall from her eyes, her head dipped low and her mind quiet again.

    There's no turning back, the silver feline reminded herself firmly, slowly raising her head.  She narrowed her eyes, an unknown fire burning in the depths of their golden-orange hue, fueling her to move forward.  The Spirits made their choice…

    ”And I’ve made mine.”

    A sudden and swift flash of steely grey broke through the morning stillness.  Flecks of deep red splattered through the pale dawn, staining the grass tinged yellow by the rising sunlight.  What once had been a mark of jarring orange against her beautiful silver pelt was no more, and her once white paw was clenched against her shoulder, claws unsheathed and deadly.  As the sun climbed steadily into the sky, its blinding light illuminated the scene - yet the damage was already done. With her claws stained red with her own blood, there was nothing left of her tribe's tattoo.  She had once bore it with pride and dignity, but no longer felt anything towards the Spirits' marking but shame and rage.

    Betrayal was all Sooka could think about.  The beautiful pale grey she-cat with her poised figure and stunning jade eyes flashed momentarily in front of her own narrowed eyes before she shook her head, forcing herself back into the present.

    Sooka released her claws from her shoulder, leaving the three long gashes to drip on their own accord, not once flinching from pain.  Mere shreds of orange lingered here and there on her shoulder amongst the deep and bleeding wounds.  With time, they would heal, and the remainder of her tattoo would turn grey and become hidden against her silver pelt once more.  At one point in time, just thought of being without her tattoo would have frighten her, yet now it only brought a sense of liberation.

    The morning grew on, calling the land's creatures from their slumbers and out into the early sunlight.  The absence of two would not go unnoticed for long, but by that time, the pair would be long gone from that place - nor would they ever return.  In the distance, two grey silhouettes slunk away, moving like the morning mist with a silence so graceful, even the stealthy shadows of this world envied them for a moment.

    "I'll leave as I came," the dappled feline mewed to her green-eyed companion.  "With nothing more or less to lose, than what I’ve chosen to leave behind."  The silver feline padded onward, turning her back on the tribes and Spirits as she went, a smile of pure confidence finally upon her lips.

    “I need to say my own goodbyes,” her companion whispered solemnly as a reminder.  Sooka knew the she-cat beside her had no real intentions of leaving him behind, but all the same, she nodded, smiling faintly at the thought of sneaking into Air Tribe.

    ”Perhaps I’ll see him – my own…perhaps I’ll see him before I disappear from this world…one last time…” she whispered to herself, vaguely aware of the pale she-cat beside her giving her a knowing look.

    ”Perhaps you will,” was all she mewled in reply, her own thoughts on another as well.

    The pair lapsed into silence, slipping through the insipid morning fog as they continued on their way.  Grey and silver meshed together, until all that could be seen were the dark figures of two slender felines in the distance.  Soon that, too, faded into the dull haze, leaving nothing behind but a memory – a memory of two who would not so soon be forgotten by that land for generations to come.

    And so it was that the young leader and the eldest warrior of Water Tribe vanished from the world.  Their part in Nandryx was over now, and what would become of their tribe remains yet to be seen.

It's funny how things can all come to a stop in an instant, you know?  I've never really considered just how quick things can end.  I don't know...it's weird to put in words, and I'm not even sure how to.  I just wanted to write something, I don't know.  I'm at a lost for what to do with any of these emotions.  It's weird to think about, you know?  Someone dying.  Someone you're close to know.  A family you know.  Grew up with maybe.  I don't know.  It's just awkward.  Everything seems to stop when you get that phone call.

And then there's the denial, and the immediate regret.  I missed so much these past few years.  All of us went our separate ways, going to college or starting a career...and we all sort of lost each other along the way.  We'd come back once a year, over the summer, meet up and all that, but it never seems to go back to the way things were when we were younger, when all that matter was who was 'it' for hide and seek, and who had a crush on who.  But that's the thing - you can never get those times back.  And then you get that one phone call, and all those memories come flooding back, and you start to regret things.  Things that don't even have to do with you just seem to explode in my head.  It's awkward.  I don't know how to describe it other than that it is what it is.

Normally I wouldn't post crap like this in a journal, but I donno...I have to type something.  I can't stop typing.  I can't form the words in my head, but my fingers seem to be doing it for me.  I can't seem to quite process it, and I don't really want to believe it...maybe 'cause I always had a sort of thing for you, I don't know.  Maybe because I'm in love with your brother.  Or maybe just because that one day when you were fourteen, I couldn't help but stare at you from across the camp ground.  You and that surfboard.  And that long hair.  

Gahh.  I don't know.  Awkward words are awkward.  And I apologize to all my watchers who end up getting this in their inbox, but...I can't stop typing.  I can't NOT type it.  I'm alone.  My computer is my outlet.  Whether I have an audience or not, I need to tell someone.  I keep my emotions bottled up, and sometimes it's more than I can handle.  So I apologize for typing this, but right now, this is my outlet.  At one in the morning, it's hard to find someone to talk to when you're all alone.

I promise, next time, I'll be smiling when I type one of these.  I won't go throwing feels at y'all.  Bleh.  It's not like me, I'm sorry.  :/
Hey y'all!  I'm sure some of you have noticed (or at least those who watch me from the groups I'm in), that I've been fairly inactive with them.  I want to apologize first off, to all those who I've been RPing with.  I know I'm incredibly late replying, and in fact, I don't intend to reply at all (with the exception of those RPs with Sade or Whisper of Coming Rain - I've remained active with them thankfully).  Anyways, I suppose this journal mostly pertains to those who are members of The-Golden-Butterfly and One-Moon-to-Go.  If you're a member of either of these groups, just to let you know, I won't be continuing our RPs.  I've cancelled all of them simply because of how late I am - or rather how old some of the RPs are.

This doesn't mean I'm going to stop though.  Actually, the reason I'm writing this is because I'd like to begin some NEW RPs instead.  I want to keep things current and participate in on going events as opposed to ones that began months and months ago.  So, if you're interesting in starting a new RP with me, please comment here or send me a note to let me know!  Again, I'm super sorry for anyone RPing with Sooka, Sorrel, Brokenspirit, or Ashfeather...I just couldn't get into things lately.  Writers block I suppose.
  • Listening to: How to Train Your Dragon Soundtrack
  • Reading: The Hobbit
  • Drinking: Arizona Green Tea
I swear to mother frickin' baby Jesus...if I get one more God forsaken spam comment...heads are going to roll.  The frick is this shit going on?  I don't approve.  And what makes even less sense to me, is how in God's name is it even happening to ME?  My mouse doesn't click shit if it don't know where it's been, lemme tell 'ya...Not to mention these "users" that continuously comment spam - THEY'RE ALL DIFFERENT.  But all of 'em have no ID photo, no icon, no damn art in their galleries, and have supposedly been on dA for 4-6 years.  They're like...ghost users.  Hell if I know.  ._.

I can't be the only one having this issue, I swear...but if I am, and some dirty little sneak is behind it, you best watch yourself.  I may be generally quiet, but that doesn't mean I won't tear you to pieces.  >:C  I ain't afraid of you bitches - come at me.

But seriously...is anyone else having this issue?  It's making me sad inside.  ;^;
  • Reading: Your obituary
  • Watching: All of y'all...
  • Eating: Souls
Hey y'all!  Sorry I've been a bit inactive lately on here - whether it be with responding to RPs, comments, etc., or uploading artwork.  I've been a bit busy with my own life considering I work seven days a week in addition to take summer courses.  Now, when I do have free time...I won't lie, I'm spending it playing the new Animal Crossing. XD *shot*  I'd definitely say it's the best so far, and that's coming from somehow who typically hates games on handheld devices!  I'm more of a console kind of girl...get on my level.  ANYWAYS.  If any of you happen to be playing as well, feel free to add me - just comment with your own friend code so I can add you as well!

    Town name: Fiore
    Friend Code: 0404 - 6416 - 1978
    Dream Address: 4500 - 2190 - 3080
This is more for me than it is for anyone else...it'll help me keep track of my RPs.  X3




Current The-Golden-Butterfly RPs :

:iconsookaplz: Sooka | Orange-Water | Water Tribe Warrior
    - Sooka & Seraphiel :: ongoing - Sooka & Caelum :: completed - Sooka & Xander :: completed - Sooka & Cadence :: ongoing - Sooka & Alasse :: completed - Sooka & Kakia :: ongoing - Sooka & Mikah :: completed - Sooka & Saki :: ongoing - Sooka & Kakoora :: ongoing - Sooka & Ashon :: completed - Sooka & Shenzi :: ongoing - Sooka & Kili :: ongoing - Sooka & Castail :: ongoing - Sooka & Conan :: completed - Sooka & Tuari :: completed - Sooka & Aeiro :: completed - Sooka & Ross :: completed - Sooka & Otter :: ongoing - Sooka & Eva :: ongoing - Sooka & Sohcah :: planned - Sooka & Vitani :: planned - Sooka & Warrun :: waiting to begin - Sooka & Sterling :: waiting to begin - Sooka & Maika :: planned - Sooka & Odessa :: chatroom - Sooka & Wanda :: planned


:icontgbsorrelplz: Sorrel | Green-Air | Air Tribe Guard
    - Sorrel & Drew :: completed - Sorrel & Wanda :: completed - Sorrel & Tara :: ongoing - Sorrel & Akarui :: completed - Sorrel & Coral :: ongoing - Sorrel & Shasta :: ongoing - Sorrel & Aeverie :: ongoing - Sorrel & Akida :: ongoing - Sorrel & Aeiro :: ongoing - Sorrel & Ryner :: ongoing - Sorrel & Ruhn :: ongoing - Sorrel & Demitri :: waiting to begin - Sorrel & Sohcah :: planned - Sorrel & Jazlyn :: waiting to begin - Sorrel & Soren :: ongoing


Current PKMN-Crossing RPs :

:iconsadethegrowlitheplz: Sade the Arcanine

    - Sade & Arizona :: ongoing - Sade & Dakota :: ongoing - Sade & Ile :: ongoing - Sade & Soak :: ongoing


Current One-Moon-to-Go RPs :

Brokenspirit | Rain Clan | Warrior

    - Brokenspirit & Thunderfoot :: ongoing - Brokenspirit & Copperstreak :: planned
...I'm still horribly late replying to so many things. I'm so sorry for those I've made wait! College has been keeping me occupied - the classes, the social life, the outdoors nonsense adventures... *flails* But as much as I love how things have been going, I feel horribly guilty for neglecting dA. I plan to get back on track with things soon and update more often - as well as respond to those millions of unanswered notes. *flees*

Anyways, sorry for anyone I've kept waiting! I'm not on hiatus - I'm just lazy preoccupied with life at the moment. >.< Thanks to those of y'all who still put up with me! *clings* X3

OH. And P.s. I don't know how many of y'all are into Instagram... I thought it was stupid before I realized the joys of quick photo editing without Photoshop But anyways, if y'all want to see random clips of things going on in my life and see some epic scenery (seriously, my campus is gorgeous!!), come follow my Instagram - or however that works, hahah. I honestly have no idea... Username's 'paradark'! :3
Hey y'all - I know many people are waiting for note responses or things along those lines (and I know I'm already horribly late with them...), but I may be even later responding to them. I'm so, so sorry, but I promise I haven't forgotten about y'all! However, I've just moved into my new dorm and things have been slightly hectic. By the looks of it things won't be lightening up until after Orientation and my first week or two of classes. Please be patient with me - I'll do my best to get to those notes very soon, as well as anything else I've been putting off!
Oh dear God. I owe so many responses to people, eek...Sorry I disappeared without warning! We had some freak storms a while back that knocked out power for a while, so I fled the state for a sanctuary in the South with air conditioning so I wouldn't die. Unfortunately, said safe haven didn't have any wifi, so I went on a sort of unannounced short hiatus. But I'm back now! I'll respond to everyone I owe responses to as soon as I can, I promise! I'll be getting back into drawing as well, although probably not as actively as I was since I've gotten a new job that could potentially cut into my drawing time. Anyways, point is, I'm alive and I'm back! Sorry once again for disappearing without a word! I feel so terrible for leaving some people without responses, whether it be via note or comment. O.o KJShsfskhjjla. *flees*
Well, I was supposed to have silly mouth surgery today for those silly little things called wisdom teeth. But apparently, some doctors don't have souls. In fact, I think having a soul and being a little bit compassionate should be required in order to even become a doctor. They need to be more like their nurses, who actually understand how to communicate with patients.

So I was crying - which is perfectly normal for any patient. I've never had any sort of surgery done before, so forgive me if I was frightened. Any normal human being would address you nicely and try and calm you down, but apparently doctors must have skipped the 'how to properly address patients' seminar in their schooling. Harassing your patient with rude hostility for being scared of surgery should be illegal. In fact, I was told to leave because he 'didn't deal with crying children' after I mentioned I was a bit nervous. All I wanted was a run down of the procedure, but I guess that's beyond your capabilities. Thank you Doctor Moron, I'm now stuck with my wisdom teeth for another year because you can't handle emotions. I'm not a child because I'm scared of surgery, thank you very much.

Bleh. Doctors. This is why nurses are far better. They're at least competent and understand their patients. All you idiot doctors can do is cut people open and act all high and mighty because you went to medical school. You have zero right to be arrogant and rude. Try taking a leaf out of one of your nurses' books and quit being such assholes. This is why no one likes doctors.

On a happier note, my face isn't swollen and I don't look like a chipmunk. :3

Eep, and sorry for the rather angsty journal entry. Ranting about something always helps calm me down, especially when highly offended by the dumber members of society!

Have a happy Dashie instead~! <3 :icondashawesomefaceplz:
I saw this lovely little thing on someone's page, and just had to do it myself. *w* Let's see how much I've screwed up of my high school years now that they're over...

[x] Gotten detention.
[x] Gotten your phone taken away
[] Gotten in school suspension
[x] Got sent to the principal's office.
[x] Chewed gum during class.


[] Gotten more than 8 tardies
[x] Didn't do homework over 3 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school cause you felt like it.
[] talked too much and got kicked out of class

[] Got your mom/dad etc. to get you out of school.
[x] Text people during class.
[x] Passed notes.
[x] Threw stuff across the room.
[x] Laughed at the teacher
[] Pulled down the fire alarm.
[x] MySpace, Facebook, etc. on the computer at school.
[x] Took pictures during school hours.
[x] Called someone during school hours.
[] Listened to an iPod/CD player/Mp3 during class.


[] Threw something at the teacher.
[x] Went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] Broke the dress code.
[x] Failed a class
[x] Ate food during class.


[x] Gotten a call home
[] Couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly
[x] Didn't take your stuff to school
[x] Gotten a detention and didn't go
[] Stuck your middle finger at a teacher.
[x] Cursed during class loud enough so the teacher could hear.

[x] Slept in class.
[x] Cursed at a teacher
[x] Copied homework
[x] Felt hungry during class and left to eat
[x] Got into so many fights.

Total = 27

Multiply your total by 3 = 81%

La la laa~. I expected it to be lower. Oops. On the bright side high school's forever over and I still managed to get into my first choice college. I question the credibility of this little quiz-thing. :icondashwhateverplz:
Well, I saw a couple people doing it, and thought it looked pretty interesting...So I made a Tumblr for little Sade!

:iconsadethegrowlitheplz:

Anyways, it's one of those ask account thingies or whatever you wanna call 'em. Feel free to ask her whatever you'd like, be it anonymous or not! She'll answer. Probably.

ask-sade.tumblr.com/ << Do it, do it, do it, do it, do it...
Oh dear. I really get a kick out of personality quizzes. I really do. Sometimes the results can be semi-accurate, and then half the time they can be so far off, it's completely hilarious. I always end up bewildered by how I even got to that result. Usually, I take a personality quiz twice. Because I'm a cheater. Only kidding! The first time, I answer honestly out of curiosity to what I'll get. And then I can't help myself - I've gotta go back and rig all my answers  to see what the other results are! I'm far too curious! Not to mention I have to determine my result is the absolute BEST. Anyone else do that...? Yes?

Anyways~. What spurred this odd journal was a lovely little personality quiz on...Hold up. What's it called? Oh. Bronyland.com! Yesh, it sounds like a questionable name...In my opinion. Moving on. I think I found the link to the quiz on someone's page while I was thanking them for a favorite, or something along those lines. So~, I took the little quiz - which I have to admit was quite thorough and not horridly predictable. I'd recommend it actually. I like the way the results are presented (they show you a nice little charty-graph thing that lets you know how much you're like each of the mane six, and then determines who you're most like by obviously which you're "closest" to on the charty-graph thing. I'm explain it poorly. Curse you lack of intelligence to explain). Erm, anyways. It's a fun little quiz! By far my favorite question was "Which would you want as a pet the most?". Of course, there were the standard options, some typical ones, blah blah blah. But the last option totally cracked me up. And obviously it's the one I clicked. I think "Scootaloo" would make a stellar pet, heheh. :giggle: Click the button! Euphoric things happen when you pick Scootaloo! Do it, do it, do it, do it!!

I dare you

Click the Scootaloo, yesh~...

It's all part of her plan for world domination!!

:iconscootplz:

Oh, and if you're wondering what my results were, I'm not telling! Heheh, you'll have to guess if you'd like to find out. 'S no fun if I just tell you. :meow:
  • Reading: Mockingjay
Sorry for spamming y'all with uploads. It's all stuff that's a bit old; I never really got around to scanning any of it since my scanner's been a bit funky lately. No worries though, I've fixed her right up and she's working wonderfully! So again, sorry for the spam of uploads! I really don't mean to. ^^;

I'm back~!

Journal Entry: Mon Jan 16, 2012, 8:31 AM


Eek, I had to extend my-originally-meant-to-be-short-hiatus for so long...A bunch of annoying icky things popped up on my end, grr.  Hopefully they don't come back and I won't have to leave again.  I worked on a bit of artwork while I was gone, but most of it was studio work and most likely won't be uploaded since I no longer have it. O.o I actually have zero idea where it is, hahah. I've got to remember to take pictures of things before they vanish.  Anyways~, so please bare with me and up lack of serious uploads. :P Mostly everything I did was quick and probably a bit sloppy...But that's okay because they weren't meant to be serious in the first place, grr.

Yepp. So, that pretty much sums everything up. Nothing really interesting to say, hahah.  Sorry again for the accidentally long-ish hiatus!

Oh. Also. Uhh... I sort of blame Skyward Sword for a small part of the hiatus. I'm sorry. It's so addicting... :O_o:
--Dark.

Short Hiatus

Journal Entry: Mon Nov 28, 2011, 12:07 PM


Hello people curious or bored enough to be reading this! :meow:

I've been so busy lately, that I really haven't had time at all to get any artwork in, minus the work I'm required to do. I have exams coming up in a couple of weeks, so I'll be preparing for eight of those lovelies, grr. I actually have no idea how I'll manage to do that as there are only three days of testing with two exams a day, hahah. I've also got quite a bit of  preparing to do concerning the artwork that's required of me. Bit behind on that, oopsies. If only paint didn't take so long to dry and wasn't so darn expensive. Point is, I've got a lot on my plate at the  moment and don't have much time to draw anything for fun to upload. So, I'll be away from dA for a while longer. Sorry to everyone I haven't thanked for a fave or watch or something yet, oh, and sorry to those people I owe a reply to as well. Hope you'll be patient with me! ^^;

Anyways, see y'all in a while! Bye-bye! :meow:

--Dark.

Dear Adorable Freshman...

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 3, 2011, 7:04 PM
  • Listening to: procrastination
  • Reading: Rape Fantasies by Margaret Atwood
  • Watching: ...the clock.


Thank you so much for seriously bringing me food... You're actually my hero. Slash, I'm going to stalk you in the halls now and be super friendly since you're my new favorite little frosh. You shall be spared when the seniors take their revenge on y'all for being so darn disrespectful. Bringing food to a senior automatically grants you protection. :meow: Seriously though, thank you so frickin' much for the happiness that is food~!!

Other than that, I'm not a huge fan of you little freshmen... Stay away from my senior lounge. And my senior staircase. And quit being so loud and obnoxious. And learn to not stand in the halls to talk about your unimportant social lives. Some of us actually have to get to class, so quit blocking my hallways. Maybe this is why we push y'all... Take a hint and have some consideration for actual stressed students trying to get to their honors or AP class.

Sophomores... Y'all are okay. I guess. You don't irritate me as much. Actually, I like y'all, hahah. Oh! And to the sophomores who bring me food on a weekly basis... Y'all are amazing. I'm bringing you to college with me so I don't starve!!

Juniors. Bleh. You annoy me. Almost as much as the freshmen. You're too cocky. Sorry to disappoint you, but you're not seniors yet. Which is why y'all were unfortunately punished. But~, I guess I sort of like y'all. You at least have some decency and aren't moronic underclassmen.

Meow. I'm actually typing this journal in order to avoid writing a paper on possibly the weirdest story I've ever had the misfortune to read... The fact that any one would write about it slightly worries me. Grr. On the bright side... Yeah, no bright side. It's an odd story.

Ohh~!! Wait, wait, totally proud of myself here... I'll be participating in the county wide (state wide? I have no idea...) physics competition~! :happybounce: I'm a nerd, shush. Anyways! My lovely micro mass tower kicked butt and now I get to kick more butt on a larger scale!! But actually, there's always someone who does it better, so I probably won't be kicking any butt. I'm excited to see what other people came up with though! ...Because I'm a nerd. O.o Anyways, it'll look good for college, yay!

Also, speaking of college... I think waiting to hear a response is the absolute worst... Not to mention the whole application process since college counselling doesn't like helping out us normallers. I'm sorry I'm not in the top five percent! Please pay attention to me, too! :cries: ...And actually come to school. It's your job.

Group Projects are a Lie

Journal Entry: Sun Oct 30, 2011, 8:50 PM


Whoever had the bright idea that group projects would be convenient and fun should be brutally beaten.  No only do they never work, but one person always ends up doing all the work, which in this case is me, and I certainly don't approve.  Not that I terribly mind doing most of the work. I'd rather do the project myself and know I did it right than have some moron do half of it incorrectly. However, when I do most of the work and have to put someone else's name on it next to mine, that's ridiculous.  Yeah, yeah, I know "life isn't fair" blah blah blah, but for God's sake, where the heck is the justice in all this? I demand to know how anyone can justify it as being completely and utterly fine. It certainly isn't.

Also, I'd like to point out that if you're in a group with someone, you shouldn't automatically expect the work to be done by one person just because you have "work". Everyone else works, too, 'ya know! And more so than you, 'ya soulless jerk. Learn to manage your time and get your part done instead of asking someone else to do it for you! Or, when you finally decide to get off your butt and do it, check your darn work, woman . And your grammar for that matter... Who doesn't know how to capitalize the first word in a sentence as a senior in high school ?? It worries me to know people such as herself even managed to pass the first three years... God, I hope she learns to make herself useful in the real world.

I'm so sorry for the random rant, but frustrations need to vented!! If they are, vicious explosions directed at an innocent bystander may occur, which would of course be unfortunate.  For the record, I don't dislike dear Miss Group Partner. She's in fact a nice friend of mine. I just really, really dislike her as a group partner; she never lifts a finger.  I sincerely hope she learns to not have such a horrid attitude and actually decides to contribute next time. Although, not in my group. I won't work with her again even if someone were to pay me. I'd sooner remove my thumbs. Wait, just kidding. I like my thumbs. A lot.

Dear Miss Carly...

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 22, 2011, 8:14 PM


Thank you so much for sitting in front of me during the ACT! I really appreciated having your obnoxiously long hair in my face, as well as your fists every time you had the urge to stretch! It was so nice having my legs crushed by your desk, too! Pushing your desk back every five seconds is such a polite way of making friends. I'm so glad I had you in front of me instead of some moron with no sense of manners whatsoever! I can't even image what that would be like.

But actually, I hope someone pushes you over a cliff. O.o You have no soul.

Also, I was reading your essay after mine had been collected... Just so you know, "your" and "you're" are not interchangeable... I pity the one who has the misfortune of reading your essay.

I'm sure I'll see you at college, Miss Carly! :sarcasticclap:

--Dark.

I've Never Appreciated Walking More...

Journal Entry: Sat Oct 15, 2011, 5:27 PM


After just one annoying month of being unable to walk properly or use staircases, my lovely ankle is no longer broken! It healed quite quickly and nicely, thank God. Plus, I can actually see my ankle now that the gross swelling and bruising as disappeared for the most part.  And, there doesn't appear to be any permanent damage, although I walk a bit weird now. I'm sure physical therapy will fix that though, as will time since I have to adjust to walking on it without a fancy air-cast boot thing.  On the bright side, I've never been happier to use a staircase over an elevator. ;P Slash, I was sick of being yelled at for being late to my classes... That damn elevator never worked properly, grr. Oh, oh, and I can stand on my tippy-toes again! And sit on the floor!! :meow:

Anyways, other than that, I've been buried alive in school work and haven't had much time to stalk dA... Although I've tried via smart phone... Not as effective as having a computer. Meow.